February 18th, 2011

yeswecan

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I fucking hate OCD. I just heard this horrible noise from my mums room - she was coughing/yelling in pain. I ran in there and she was sitting up clenching her chest then she calmed down composed herself screamed at me to turn the light back of and went back to sleep. Now I can't stop doing compulsions and crying me eyes out. so fucking scared and i can't even talk 2 her about it because once she's asleep there's no waking her up properly till morning. feel so alone and angry and scared. and i hate this and i want it to stop but i'm not sure it ever will